Mood: Can’t say… cuz I don’t know
Doing: Revising chemistry
Listening to: Runaway - Avril Lavigne
“I just wanna scream and loose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway, yeah
I just want to fall and loose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and runaway, yeah”
Exactly my words!
Why now? Why now, when things are going well, when the exam is freaking us out already?
Too many things are happening at the same time. Of course, you gotta go on in life, but not like this… not now. Veena and I live just about 0.5 km away from each other… so easy for us, when we need each other. At the beginning of our friendship, which would be 13 years ago, we lived in the same city. A few years later, she moved to, where she lives now. Our friendship only grew bigger, even though there was a HUGE distance, a difference! About 3 years ago we finally got to live in the same city, as I moved to here as well.
NOW: I’m going to study on Uni soon, we’re having dreams that will probably just remain as dreams, Veena is maybe going to move, exams are soon… what more do we need?
I know, that one day or another, you have to do certain things… but I really feel like I’m not ready to step through this door. Usually people say that there are a lot of doors open, and you just have to choose, which ever you like.. but I feel, there is only one door that exists in the first place, then what other choice is there? Deep inside I know there are other paths I can take… but right know I’m just a little confused.
Yesterday I was at Veenas place. Even though we were laughing and “having fun”, it didn’t FEEL like that. The atmosphere was all wrong…
Later on, when I got home, I wrote with my best friend from my school- and high school time. We were talking about the huge difference there was between, what we WANT TO pursue, and what we DO!
THAT discussion on top of the fact that Veena was maybe gonna move soon… wasn’t exactly a nice cocktail.
Anyway, we’re trying to stay calm about this even though it feels horrible. You can leave a comment, if you’re going through or have experienced similare things or have any advises to feel better about it… 
Even though I’m proberbly over it already… 
I really have a lot of updates for the site, but I really don’t feel like doing it now… when I get better time and better mood, I’ll do it for sure.
Anyway… change of topic. I watched some movies last week : Our Happy Times (OMG! :’( makes you think about life, for real *cries* ) & Secret (a very beautiful movie… so beautiful, it makes you cry (well… it did for me); especially the music)
I think those movies are MUSTS!
Anyway… the blog came out kinda too long, so I think I’ll stop here, even though I can keep writing.
Cya in my next blog <3
Mood: Happy, but also a little confused
Doing: Writing down a list, of things to do
Listening to: Shine - Aly & AJ
Okay… so here’s the thing. I’m such a Hello Kitty freak; so some days ago, I searched for Hello Kitty pictures on Google, so I could make a new layout with it… or maybe Pucca. But anyway, what happened was (as usual), that I found a lot of gadgets and stuff with Hello Kitty. This time, there were more than usual… and seriously, why aren’t they sell or do those things in other places but East-Asia (mostly)?!
Anyway… I really think, you should take a look at some of those things:
Okay… this phone is just TOO cute. Something I would LOVE to have in my room… for real. Ya, it’s not wireless, but who cares, when it’s so cute. As long as it’s placed in my room, I don’t think it would matter if it’s wireless or not.
Casio Exilim… the digital camera I have now. But mine is just black! I love the color black; no doubt about that, but if I knew this one existed… *out of words*
Exactly this time around, where I’m looking for a new phone… precisely those kinds, that you can flip open, I just HAD to find this picture!! I really wish I could buy one of those without having to buy a flight ticket all the way to Japan, even if it’s a place I’d die to visit
Some other random stuff… mp3-player, video- and digital camera, a phone etc…
And last but not least…
Already Farraris are my favorites… but maybe that’s too much Hello Kitty for me, but I like the car in pink though.
So much for the Hello Kitty stuff!
The reason why I’m happy is because, I’ve been having some great time with Veena and her sis this weekend. We’ve promised each other to work harder on whatever we do in the future. We do work hard already, but sometimes, we feel like having too much fun and forgetting to take other things serious. After we’ve been talking about it, we both feel much better, and just want to do anything to hold on to our studies.
We have some dreams… BIG dreams. Dreams about music, singing and etc. But when thinking about the studies, it’s like Us+Music = Hopeless..
Also because of many cultural reasons, it’s like, it won’t work out. Even though WE are confident about ourselves, and that we won’t change the way we are or forget our culture, it’s like the “elders” aren’t as confident about us as we are. It makes us nervous about pursuing our dreams.
Enough about that… I’ve been TAGGED.. so ya, here’s some things about MEEE, and I’m not gonna write things, that are TOO obvious, like “I love my family and friends” or “I go to school” -_-’… but it doesn’t mean that I don’t care about those stuff… Hehe..! :
- I luv MUSIC!!! Singing, dancing…! And doing it with Veena, is always making it even more fun!
- I’m not a nerd, but I used to do math in my sparetime… and yes, I said USED to. Now things are too complicated, but still kinda enjoy it though
- Sports, is to die for. Mostly martial arts, soccer, basket, tennis and badminton… and of course DANCING!
- I’m 5′1… yes, I’m small
- Apart from my dream of becoming a singer, I would luv to feat some of fave artists from Asia like: DBSK, Boa, SuJu, Battle etc. Hehe… I know, that’s a BIG dream, but hey. There’s no rule saying, you can’t dream, is there?
- I love cooking anything, but hopeless at eating just anything… I’m quite choosy, when it comes to food; or anything else… LOL!
- I use contacts Used to wear colored ones for some time
- I go crazy in the bookstores. Not really buying books, but pens, pencils, erasers, copy books etc. Have a “collection” of about 1000 things from the bookstores.
- Have “too many” shoes, clothes, bags, hats and accessories… meaning, about 30 pairs of shoes, MANY clothes, 20-something bags, bla bla bla and 2 drawers full of accessories.
- Veena and I have been knowing each other for 13 years; when her younger sis was born (she’s such a cutie, even though she’s grown big now! )
Okay, so I think I’d better stop before the blog becomes a novel…
Anyway, gotta tag someone. I’ve chosen: Frutee , Ayei , Alis , Sakura, Loz
Cya next time!! With LUV <3
I’ve made a lot of graphic and I’ve been thinking about making some tutorials. I’m just too lazy to upload the graphic right now ;P So you’ll maybe get the updates tomorrow ;P Cause I don’t have school Thursday and Friday xD Yay!!
I had social-studies-test today… And I was so stressed!! Cause we only had 35 minutes to answer the questions!! >_<*